lost and gain..

people choose me, I choose people....
I am totally sad tonight... suddenly feel, those thing that actually I have now are lost...
although our love are passed, but in this few years you still keep on showing your caring on me... I am really happy that ... at least... at least there have a man that truly care about me... even you are in that kind of far from me... you still helping me and supporting me always... but now.. i am lost of you... lost your caring... lost your support.... actually I already guess that this would happen in one day.. but can't believe I will have this kind of feeling now.... but however... I still happy that you found your way now... those behind you, please don't look back anymore...

lost someone but get someone... but am I really get? haha no way.. it won't be happen..
hmmm hehe this is another guy... but whether he is true or not I am not sure... but even he is true also we can't be together... I kinda like the feel when we are talking together... i like how you treat me, althhough is abit playful and humor... but all the things happen now can just me and you to know it... cuz.. we cant be together...
please... don't treat me that good can? longer grow longer I am scared that I gone to the wrong way that no return...
this is the reason why I don't hope for a partnet for now... cuz.. love are uncountable... I am afraid of point that no return.. afraid of losing something important.... afraid to be hurt.... afraid to be blame...

SKY...

What is the Distance between the Sky and You?
What is the most Far and the most near?

This is the virgin of Natalie to create a jewel design
its an title SKY... its inspired me to do it when I listening the song 'Adoration' by David Tao... love this song very much which I really touched by its lyric...

The body of the ring shows that its very light that just like the sky that the wind always lightly touched our skin... The main gem of this ring is a pearl that represent as we hoping something that just like our heavens... The side gems represent as a wing that helps the users to achieve the dreams...

well... me myself like it much.. haha how about you?

~Love and Peace~
Teng teng

a sweet memories...

How are you?
i saw you again today....
although.. is already passed 4 years but i still remember the day that we first met..
haha... still remember that you follow the back of mine until i reach home...
that is to know where i actually live
still remember that you always try to say something to me
and i was always act doesn't understand..
still remember that you write the word that you wanna tell me
and I told you that I don't understand chinese word.. which i actually know the meanng of the words you write..
in that years actually i have many words wanna tell you... but why whenever i saw you, i just can't speak out?
its passed 4 years.... whatever that was just gone in suddenly... very suddenly
maybe that was too late to tell you... but this what i wanna tell you in that moment..
hope to like it.. although it passed...but i don't mind to share it now... cause its passed..

so here i am
standing all alone
in a corner that waiting for you

so here i am
waiting just for u
Tell me all the words that hide between us

Our story will just stop right here
All I wanted to say, has already been said,and the rest is secret
You will around the beautiful speech world in this moment
which I gently speak this poem,

~Love... Natalie~

well although this too late... but then is sweet too when i remind it... best wishes for you.... N...
and for all the people... just don't miss the chance to tell what you wanna tell to that people... once missed, maybe it can't tells anymore to that person

peaceful aroma

a Tired night , a Fresh mask
aroma softly touched my skin
aroma has made me feels the joy
no steal , no act , its all straightly from the heart
a joy can actually came in very straightly...

tonight no need to do Overtime... feel abit happy... although I holding 3 task in hand now.. but lucky two task of it, the client still need some chances while waiting for it that why tonight i no need to do overtime... but tomorrow don't know la... should be very busy for this weekend also.. maybe .. hmm..

don't know why... got time for me to have a nice sleep but i rather to write here.. hahaha
haizz maybe it's my life.. "san fu mheng"
but i believe do more earn more geh... not only earn money la also earn the hapiness

although now waiting for the chances from clients.. but yet don't know why i will also thinking of it.. hmmm maybe i like this task... cuz it is about food.. hahaha and is my favourite food, japanese food.. haha.. it is a menu for the japanese restaurant.. and they want it to have some funky feels for the menu.. hmmm maybe i like this task cuz can play more guah.. not like those corporate that i do for other task that was so boring layout and they say very nice... i also not understand, i just simple draw for them only...that why i will try my best to do the menu task cuz i like it.. sometimes even though work until late night also will feels is worth... cuz when it comes out the result , when the client likes it.. i feel very happy.. the happiness that cannot explain... but today another happiness is my OT money received le.. the last month OT money... so happy..

a peaceful night for today... hope for the weekend also..

~love and peace~
teng teng

a funny person a funny question

a funny question been asked and makes me a laugh..
my colleague asked me this while i busy doing my work today
she asked me .. if let say suddenly my computer suddenly "meletup" then how ah?
then i answer her... if like that then good lo cuz nonit to shut down the computer then can straightly go home already, then tell the boss tomorrow that the computer meletup already, all the work habis liao...

I ain't Superwoman

Don't ever look me as a superwoman please..
what the fuck of you put me all of the work.. go hire people la sucks..

Lol.. a staff scolding the boss.. in heart only hehe...

this few weeks very busy ohhh.. my senior injured her leg and went for operation and now she is on leave so all of the works pass to me and in the same time the new jobs all coming in...
that means i need to work on my own task , work on my senior task and the new task that just come.. so sucks la.. he always told me that he wan hire people to help me out.. but just say only at the end all the work also i do all.. he really thought i am a superwoman... and the most hate of him is he always promise the client something and say MUST CAN DONE for wat wat wat and on time.... hey! did you think before what you promise is not done by you, did you think before how people feeling.. already so much of work still wan to promise client those thing.. sucks la this boss...
pentingkan diri sendiri only .. but of course geh ... boss mah.. sure like that lo..
but sometimes i really feel .. are you want me to die?
hey i really wan some holiday .. very tired!!! wuu wuu but can't take leave also cuz my senior not here so must go work luuu....
Tak han sei emm tak han bheng..

the world of grey

A long time did not take a drop here.. tonight suddenly wanna have a write here of my heart..
I have drank a rich coffee tonight.. feels the world are really grey...
and I started to think , why is the world like this? why?
The future that I wish for, will it reach to me?

A person will suddenly think like that... is because the stress or the bad are came to them..

well hmm.. this is life .. what to do.. life is still on .. and we have no choice.. we still have to go on too..
haizz but in this stage.. I won't cry lo.. I just wanna write to release a bit.. hmm ..
whatever will be , will be...
Teng teng are... you need to be strong ya!

A tired week

Almost 1 week did not write anything here.. haha not that nothing to write but is no time to write.. today was sunday but i need to work OT at office.. so cham this whole week also no a day for holiday , Saturday and Sunday also gone for working...and also almost 11 p.m only i go home chamnya but lucky today I can submit my work on time to client.. thank god! its done now.
But... what more cham.. then work OT on Saturday and also Sunday? that was no job lo.. haizz "wan sek kan nan " mah .. haha but I guess so my salary for this month will be high la hahahaha work OT on Saturday and also Sunday have to charge double for each hour... wahahahahahha I saturday work from 8.00 a.m until 7 p.m sth and Sunday i work from 9.30 a.m to 11 p.m.... sure more money liao.. wahahaha...
haizz but I now gonna rush for the second task now, is gonna to submit on wednesday.. thanks god this was not that much thing to do in this task... compare to the task that I rush for saturday and sunday.. that was a 60 pages book but need to rush in 2 days, and also another designer is on her holiday leave in this week, so I need to do all the 60 pages on myself... haizzz what to do ... client always the bigger mah, once they give us a job and the duration for the job and boss agreed then we have to do and can't say NO, they say must finish in 2 days that mean 2 days no postpone... but hopefully in this coming saturday and sunday will not have any task for me to rush on... plus this coming week i can say is 2 weeks non stop working and rushing task.. i need at least 1 day for me holiday ...

Love and Peace
~teng teng~

just today's feeling...

why does people always look things in outside? that really show that they don't understand me ... even we been together since I was born in this world... I just felt abit little bit of tired and I wish to have a nap... and they say... u do wrong thing in your work today? I feel so disapointed lo.... at the night i really cry out... why do people don't understand me? i cry out cuz i feel abit of stress.... I have been given 2 task today.... the first task already done and the second task quite a difficult for me... i can't think of it even one idea... so when i reach home ... i really cry out to releaze my stress of it..... why do they always thought I will do wrong thing? ...

uhhhh... it was misunderstood...

Gary VS Justin

LOL...Gary fight with my lovely Teen...
haizz this is what they will do when they are drunk... so guys don't drink too much alcohol ..

lol the Gary kick Justin's private... On the way finding this two video clip, I found out that there are much people hate Justin uhhhh... many people say Justin badly and shot him with the word of 'bald'... and some say horrr " on the whole fight , Justin's cap doesn't come off, he should be using glue to stick his head with the cap".... hmmm I don't know this should say funny or what... they was saying joke but is shoting people with the words...

before this they are buddy how come they will fight till like this? ALCOHOL!! haizzzz....
however I love him still..

Gary was so gross ...people already don't want to fight but he still non stop fighting...and their friends also abit nut lo... see they fight like this also don't stop them faster and still let them go home with the same taxi... the last action of Gary was so dangerous, lucky nothing bloody case happen...

A very nice stall with DIY handmade craft... I like this kind of things very much... it located at Ikano Power Centre....haha I have drank a cup of bubble tea.. hehe happy can be very straight in sometimes..

latest creation...

There is something I need

I need love
The kind that makes you wanna live
The kind that makes you wanna breath
The kind that makes you feel too much

I need you
The one that makes you wanna live
The one that makes you wanna breath
The one that makes you feel too much

And I need you
To help me find a better way
And i guess you never hear me say...
I need love

check it out!!

check out your name meaning... let try mine first!

> A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
> B = You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
> C = You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
> D = You have trouble trusting people.
> E =You are a very exciting person.
> F = Everyone loves you.
> G = You have exce! llent ways of viewing people.
> H =You are not judgmental.
> I =You are always smiling and making others smile.
> J =Jealously
> K =You like to try new things.
> L = Love is something you deeply believe in.
> M = Success comes easily to you..
> N = You like to work, but you always want a break.
> O = You are very open-minded.
> P =You are very friendly and understanding.
> Q = You are a hypocrite.
> R =You are a social butterfly.
> S = You are very broad-minded.
> T = You have an attitude, a big one.
> U = You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
> V = You have a very good physique and looks.
> W = You like your privacy.
> X = You never let people tell you w! hat to do.
> Y = You cause a lot of trouble.
> Z = You're always fighting with someone.

NATALIE
N = You like to work, but you always want a break.
A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
T = You have an attitude, a big one.
L = Love is something you deeply believe in.
I = You are always smiling and making others smile.
E =You are a very exciting person.

TENG
T = You have an attitude, a big one.
E =You are a very exciting person.
N = You like to work, but you always want a break.
G = You have exce! llent ways of viewing people.

almost 80% i feel that true for my own.. hehe.. i really can be very quiet when something on my mind.. a big attitude? how big? haha that i don't know.. love i believe too but is that deeply that i not sure.. i like tosmile always and makes other happy.. i am exciting person? hehe i am not sure with it.. i like to work but always want a break that definately true on this.. i really like to work but i always want a big holiday but when i am holidaying i want to work.. hehe and the last wan the meaning for 'G' i not sure what it means ..

try out yours and see is that true?

29 August.. sushi tei~

Love.... David

its my day...

can't imagine is that silent tonight..

peace to you

take a breath, feel the air,
let it rain, let it pour, let it be...

the candles is lighten up,
and the loneliness is follow up,
wish of mine, peace to each...

talk to me, feel the words,
happy birthday to me...

can't sleep tonight... does not follow doctor's instruction again.. feel a little sad tonight...
A unhappy person is searching for happiness...
can i have this?

Take my hand and lead me,
every step with you..... peace~

a sudden think...

21 August.. A sudden trip happened .. a sudden joy happened..
I went to my cousin's new house that located in Bukit Jalil, feeling free and nothing in my mind..
Early in the next day, Saturday morning, I went for a swim activity.. hmmm after back from Redang Island, I have not swim.. so now .. it feel nice.. after swim, I went to sauna.. this was my first time to do sauna.. hmm just feeling hot when in the sauna room but feel refresh when out of the sauna room.
A sudden things go through my mind.... alone to vocation can be joy too..

Love and Peace
~teng teng~

please...

why can't you give me some times and let me take a breath?
omg this few days she keep saying me this and that she thought what i want is just staying at home doing nothing...
staying at home means i don't wanna find a job? i am finding la!!!! what so serious is just go through 1 week ++ and i didn't ask for any pocket money also and i didn't spend much money also why can't you give me some times to find something i like?
tak kan when i finding job that times and i will call you to come and watch me find job garr!!! you didnt saw doesn't mean i didn't do okey....
ohh i really headache when i know how you think of me now.. how many times do i need to explain to you? few weeks for holiday also cannot?

nice~~

my world in grey

Will loneliness gives me courage to love? it sounds weird...

I have realized that miss lonely is always around me... from time to time... she comes to visit me in anytime.. i was afraid of her, the fear of loneliness... just like now.. miss lonely is just beside me... she makes me feel like wanting to cry...this fear of loneliness makes me wanting to being love.. but sometimes i feel like i doesn't dare to step forward.... i feel me and him is going too far from each other..

this are the classes that called "life"

there are many things and moments in life which are unavoidable, what is happiness without sadness? what is pain without pleasure? what is fear without courage?

hard to say i'm sorry

lol i like this version of "hard to say i am sorry" ... of course the part that i like the most is justin... wahahhahaha

chelsea

found this two video clips yesterday..for my opinion.. she have a nice voice..

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Don't know why today me got into moody... hmmm no reason for me to moody actually just suddenly feel no mood... haizzz but just me... i have nobody to talk to ... what can i do is just type in here to release the moody....

3 days to go

3 days to go on my work... but now decide don't to be teacher..
so for now decide to rest for few weeks only search for a new job..
this 2 days not much things to do just help the senior to edit something only but then sometimes also need OT until 8 or 9 sth le.. hahahaha
normal la if i still continue work there 8 or 9 sth is the normal time we go home .. late time for us is 11 to 12 sth...
like hell
then another day need wake up early to work.. haizzz so sien... "wan sek kan nan"
anyway

love and peace..
~teng teng~

puppeteer

fantastic for me la.. hahahaha

kiddy

am i like a kid? have a kid attitude? yes

he say out the truth i really like a kid.. childish... actually i admit this... but then i can't accept my own attitude that make me can't find a partner... he say he not mean this... izzit? if not he won't say like tat... pain in inside.. whose know? i just wan people around me to laugh and feel happy when i am... like that also wrong meh?

Don't don't like me .. please...

photos...

Virus-AC74

I found a great artist yesterday... hmmm I don't know her real name but her nickname that appear in people life is Virus-AC74... hmm I does not know what her nickname mean to her.. hahha bt she really a great artist as you can feel it in her work... she work as a animator for 11 years and now she is a full time illustrator and comic artist... I found her work course I am a comic fans... hahaha
Lets check out her work on below..

I like this kind of artistic photo very much .. but sometimes i does not know what the photographer trying to tell us in the photo.. hahahha

This model really handsome.. hahhaaha a new male model..that was "Virus-AC74" .. her friend's son..maybe is I like his hair style.. and also I very like "guai lou" actually... wahahaahahaha next time if got chance wan marry with guai lou...

Emotional...
Shou.... she is really sexy..










I like this...is really cool...this is a work that join together of "Virus-AC74 and another artist" sorry forget his name jor..wahahahaha

lol... thanks for viewing my blog... hope you will enjoy looking at this kind of art... cuz i like this kind of thing so much , hope you will like it too.. hahahha
And for those who same as me like this kind of art... feel free to view my blog again cuz there have many other great artist ... "Virus-AC74" is just one of the artist that I feel great.. so when I found their works more then I will update in here...