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i think that day i was taken a wrong decision... i should told him about that... now i was just like a monster... although you still have contact with me but i know that you are trying to away from me...lol i just want to have friends for now... my heart is pretty heavy.. please any lovely things please don't come to me.. i really can't stand for it anymore.. broken broken and broken heart...

Well another thing i wan to share here is nowadays those young girl are really LC lo.... i have asked myself i have nothing been to disturb you also.... but the feeling is just like you are emotional fighting with me... i talk one word and you fight me back one word..have i done anything that make you dislike me? every words spoken by you on me are really 'cucuk' my heart... i don't know that was your own personality or maybe your are too straight but then mind your words la.. you don't even think that it will hurt people? i know you are pretty, you are young and you always looks perfect in people eyes ,many guys chasing you.. but what going on with me? you are so perfect! why still wan to shot me le? everyone think you are the best you are good girl and no one come out to protect me by shoting from you..ok fine... i am the uglyness, i am older, i am bad and won't be chasing and now... is that enough for you? it just like a drama series.. i can't even imagine this happen in my life... can't imagine i will met this kind of character... out look give people feel like a good girl , inside like a shit! you want to shot people or talk bad of people please la speak louder let other people hear also don't talk in low voice.... you tot i can't hear what you say meh..... other people maybe.. maybe you talk it really damn low voice maybe they can't hear that your words that shoting me... but you tot i can't hear it ar! damn! $%%&^$%*&