Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Life is but a dream

A long time did not came here to have a type...

well the times for me now are going a little too fast... maybe it would be good for me to forget you... cause in this times I really does not have time to think of you... Everyday work gila... Morning morning 6 Something wake up.. prepare... eat breakfast... 7 something alomost 8 la go out for work.. 8 sth reach there... then once reach there I would sit on my place and start working ... face to the computer work work work and work.... then about 1 p.m go for lunch... come back after lunch then again sit down and work work work... hmm almost everyday until 7.30 p.m la but sometimes even until 9 sth... then go back home and then I feel very tired.. especially my eyes.. then I will take bath then eat dinner then maybe sometimes I will rest a while or watch drama or online chatting a while.. then I will sleep or sometimes if I really very tired then after eat dinner I will straight away go for sleep...the most happiest is saturday and sunday of course hahah cause saturday is half day work until 1.30 p.m only but sometimes also need to rush work maybe 2 sth or 3 like tat only can back home... hahaha starting ... I really feel myself useless and scared cuz I have the feeling that those collegue does not like me cause I do my work pretty slow and even can't design anything... then they give me something easy to do just like arrange words for those menu book or something else la but thousand millions words there see until my eyes also blind... and so well of course I try my best to do it... and then.. wow that such easy arranging words also it got alot of mistake there.. ok then I take back and correct the mistake... then ok adi... wow that time really do until wanna cry also.. not because of too much work or anything actually is very little work ... it is because I feel myself useless... well now is better than last time la at least I can work faster than last time and at least they I have started to do a designing work but just a little design la but that I adi feel happy.. and I feel they now not that dislike me adi.. hmmm don't know that was myself "toh sam" or maybe they really got dislike me before la...

Life is like that... when I was a student I wish to grow up fast then can start work and earn money but now I really missing the study life... although when studying diploma.. it sometimes quite tiring cause of assignment and maybe sometimes a little stressful but I will feel happy and proud if I create an artwork which have my own style and get praise by the lecturer.. but now working let me know how different is between work and study... when study... normally the lecturer will let go to your ownself create the artwork they will say you have to have you style... but when you go on to work.. you can have your own style .. you design must have to full fill what the client want... that is not about style or not style anymore as long as the client feel nice then mean okey.. if you create it with your own style and you feel nice also but the client don't like mean no use with the style you have... so well this the different...

hmmm now I was thinking if I have times I will go learn comic drawing or can called kartunis also... well I have this interest a long time ago but that times I does not know why I don't go for learn that and now hahah abit regret.. so I was thinking to go for learning class for kartunis... maybe later la hahaha have to wait my salary come out first then only have money to learn hahahaha... and I was on the way creating my own comic... hmm maybe I will put in 70%-80% of my own story inside... well before this I already say it many times that I want to create an comic but yet until now only I start planing.. now on the way designing the comic character. hmmm actually I have a big heart to start my comic is because of you... welll maybe until now you still does not know that I am real to you maybe you are just though that I am kidding with you.. sometimes I really hope to have someone beside me but then I think my personality are definately hard to find a someone for me hahahahaha hmm hahaha watever ... it want comes and it will come , it doesn't come and it wont come .... so I have no reason to wait for anyone...

Life is but a dream.... hmmm now i on the way doing my dream... a comic artist... it would be my life or a dream? that a future everyone does not know ...hehe

Long time no say this
Love and peace
but now I have now... haizzz don't know myself ahhh love is pretty confused...

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