Zero value

Since when? I think I doesn't have the value in this place. Life here it's realistic. Unimaginable for the future of mine....

broken...

我真的受傷了... I am supprising you asked me like that.... You buy an expansive computer for me that you are actually have a plan in you mind since long time ago? You treat me as your lover or your ATM? Don't you feel, I am tired....

choices

Am I in the right way? or not? wow.. recently i just know that, actually some person i met before, he is romantic person. The same person, different time, and I have different feeling to this person. It's supprised me. Maybe it's because we have growth mature in time to time. But I really feel happy to him, when I heard his story. And when I think on my own situation, sometimes, I really have asked myself, do I really love him? Actually, i don't know.. as, I feel more comfortable in being a single... I have tried to comfortable myself for now that's in relationship.

The parents

A famous writer once ever says that "when I was a child, I thought that once we grow up, we won't ever been hurt." But while growing up, it's have to been hurt. Living will be hurted. Maybe this is a sad reality. Some of the parents nowadays will just treat their child like a prince or princess.They will not let go and protect their child in 360 degree. Just a little group of parents will only understand that "mistake", is actually the fertilizer for growing up. Even doesn't wish to, they will forced themselve to become the character of a Lion King. Looking their child fall down, suffering, they won't give them a pair of helping hand. This is to wish they learn from the "mistake". In the life of Lion, the Lion King will become a cool stronger to train their growing child so that in the future they can be more stronger than their parents as a target. This is what about the parents.

misunderstanding is a killing tool

The world is almost full of misunderstanding.

Yesterday day, I get to know that what I spoke with honestly which truly from my heart was hurts her feeling.

Well actually I admit that sometimes what I spoken is not enough nice to hear but all this was from my heart, my feeling originally. I will only say something that nice to listen but without honest to those people that I feel is not so close or those people I not respect.

This story is like that, she bought me a jacket, I says, "it quite nice, thanks ".
After that when I was not around, she asked my bf, "what I bought always are very ugly? ".
Of course after that my bf says it to me and ask me next time say 'nice ' or like it very much otherwise she not happy again. Actually I really wanna tell him that "then how about my feelings? ".I also bought a small inner bag for her. but she don't even want it.But of course I didn't say it out to him as he is in the middle of us.

Well actually I just say what I comment on the jacket which I really feel quite nice, but for me it not as nice as very. Style is very characteristics and personal,even my mum buy me clothes, if nice then I say nice if not then I will directly say ugly. Yesterday, I have a very good lessons about this.

Today I suddenly been reflected by what my bf says. He say that sometimes I talk to people without considering people's feeling. I realize is that really true of me?

I don't know. I just know that I always been misunderstood by peoples.

life to no regrets

Humans... will go through the death devil before they go to the non return way?
recently am I have a smoke of unlikeness?
why in just shortly a year some people around me are face to the death devil?
well know there doesn't have anyone will accompanied us forever.
we need to really appreciate what we have and who we with now.

never to regret....

The act, we improving

Today's topic is the THE ACT OF HUMANS.

In working life is very normal that we will meet some people that is incredible rude. The problem is how we act our position infront of them.

Today I get to know an interest story that start from an office lady. Hmmm, sometimes we just a small little ants in the office, we can't really fight those big elephant that lack of brain. She just ask the brainless senior to revise the costing but don't know what happened in between them,the elephant shouted at her infront of all the other colleagues.

The lady feels herself rude if she fight him back,so she just keep quiet. In this case, hmmm for me, well I will just ignore that fatty bastard because it's doesn't worth to angry of that small little shit.

But she choose to make herself suffer still. she posted her anger on her message wall. Wow this act is definitely just to let all her friends and family know about it and as normal response, normally friends will comment on her post which will support her. Hmmm it's makes me feel like...she doesn't get any support from others when she been shouted by her senior and now she wants to get some mentally support from her net friends or she just full fill herself when her friends helping her to scold her senior on her personal message wall.

Haizz... actually all I says can't really easy to do it. A person in her anger, needs something else to cool her down. Well it's normal. This is definitely normal human act. ..hmmm I seems find myself have improving on my act as I couldn't imagine that I am not angry at all yesterday. Haha, well I not that office lady that this story about. Is just my housemate making problem again,I didn't angry at all, well I just feel like,he have his comments on my attitude, okay, I received his comments and I trying to improve my act until he have have nothing to say on me.

Well, is not easy to resistant this kind of brainless animal's behavior.

The air will full of freshness tomorrow.
we improving our act.

There is no more Love and Peace but with Words of nature.

People of lack of positiveness

friends really cannot live together in the same house.

If just a friend which only meet few times a months, then won't we any problem but once live together, we will saw the negative of each other.

Some people, few million also they won't care, some people just a little seed of salt also they care.

Is all these are the behave came out when the person born?

Sometimes, a person really can't treat too good to others. Because, they won't know, reverse, they will only thought what you are doing is just for your ownself. Once they unlike you, they even extreme evil until selfiness and even deliberate do something to make their enemy angry.

Friends for already few years, why just a little seed of misunderstood will make until become a big issue? These are not big issue for us to angry or unhappy with it. But some people just want to make their enemy to angry, they will just simply take anything to fight.

Really can't forgive this kind of people.... As I asked myself, I am not those kind of people which will always angry people, because I feel angry will make myself very suffering. But in this few years they are the first people who make me unlike, and I have a feeling that, we can't ever be friend anymore unless they willing to understanding and improve their atitude and behave.

God Bless them.....

Love and peace

Teng Teng

Woodlands Waterfront

A boring day on sunday, we just hang out and have some photoshoot.

Prawning time

DIY decorated Birthday Cake

My 22nd Birthday with a DIY decorated Birthday cake.

But at the end... hehehe it really doesn't taste nice, so we just eat about half cake, then the others all.... throw away luuuu...

Taste of a bowl of soup

People says, women that know to boil soup is is the joyful women.

That day, I boiled the lotus soup. First.. I boiled a big bowl of soup. I thought it can't finish as it that kind of big bowl....

First spoon of soup in the mouth, it a strong taste joy of love.

He says that it very nice.... after all, I realize that I just have a small bowl of soup, and he drank a other. I think, people says that women who know to boil soup is a joyful women is because when the women seen others love to drink the soup they boil, this is the joy they feel. Even we never drink alot, but when we seen other love to drink it, we really feel happy.

I actually is a kind of women that likes to cook. But every times after cook, I realize actually I not like to eat much, but I enjoying to see the respond of the person who feel my creation.

Maybe this is what so call WOMEN.....

bloody heart...

well.... now turned me to look like a bad person infront of others?... i really proud of you la... u really a good actor. what you and she did to us, we keep in our heart... we angry but we never do anything bad to you two people. now... well well well... i am the first person who step to the banana skin... keep to the promise but at the end what i get? hahaha what i get is you turned me to look like a bad person...

my heart aim by your knife long time ago? did you?...

terrible...

the world is turning 360'...
you are the best actress and he was the best actor as well.... really feel terrible and irritating everytime saw you guys being like a good person infront of me... people treat you guys nicely, how can you did this to a friend? is this called friend?....

terrible person my world.....

The freedom of solitude

孤独的自由...
What is love?
who understand?
Love will come,
just as it will go
My tears are reviewing the past
As far as love goes,
it's just a memory
I occasionally thinking of you
So-called "happiness" is a fairytale,
Afterwards, I did everything as a I wished,
So, it doesn't matter...

Love and peace...
~teng teng~

stupid question of today..

someone asked me... "you not feeling lonely to be single?"
why human like to ask those stupid question as they usually knows the answer?
simply just want to see how creative I answer it? come on I really tired to entertain....

down of the day 2

pretty? admire?...

pretty... is easier to get admire... is it a competition? ... sorry my face... I can't change... Self-esteem has been concealed laughter... Is it all same? All also use only their eyes to love?... I don't know what are the guys thinking.... confusing...

I feel like very disappointed on guys...

no more love, no more peace today....

down of the day

very down recently.... I started to suspect how was actually my talent? I started lack of confident on my own design...

a funny recommendation of today...

haha... a sale women has recommend me a bag today..... and then she said " is very useful and cheap only, you can also bring it t school".... well my face still look like a secondary school student ohh? hehehe and then my daddy and mummy laugh at me and say "you are still small children face"....