Zero value

Since when? I think I doesn't have the value in this place. Life here it's realistic. Unimaginable for the future of mine....

broken...

我真的受傷了... I am supprising you asked me like that.... You buy an expansive computer for me that you are actually have a plan in you mind since long time ago? You treat me as your lover or your ATM? Don't you feel, I am tired....

choices

Am I in the right way? or not? wow.. recently i just know that, actually some person i met before, he is romantic person. The same person, different time, and I have different feeling to this person. It's supprised me. Maybe it's because we have growth mature in time to time. But I really feel happy to him, when I heard his story. And when I think on my own situation, sometimes, I really have asked myself, do I really love him? Actually, i don't know.. as, I feel more comfortable in being a single... I have tried to comfortable myself for now that's in relationship.

The parents

A famous writer once ever says that "when I was a child, I thought that once we grow up, we won't ever been hurt." But while growing up, it's have to been hurt. Living will be hurted. Maybe this is a sad reality. Some of the parents nowadays will just treat their child like a prince or princess.They will not let go and protect their child in 360 degree. Just a little group of parents will only understand that "mistake", is actually the fertilizer for growing up. Even doesn't wish to, they will forced themselve to become the character of a Lion King. Looking their child fall down, suffering, they won't give them a pair of helping hand. This is to wish they learn from the "mistake". In the life of Lion, the Lion King will become a cool stronger to train their growing child so that in the future they can be more stronger than their parents as a target. This is what about the parents.

misunderstanding is a killing tool

The world is almost full of misunderstanding.

Yesterday day, I get to know that what I spoke with honestly which truly from my heart was hurts her feeling.

Well actually I admit that sometimes what I spoken is not enough nice to hear but all this was from my heart, my feeling originally. I will only say something that nice to listen but without honest to those people that I feel is not so close or those people I not respect.

This story is like that, she bought me a jacket, I says, "it quite nice, thanks ".
After that when I was not around, she asked my bf, "what I bought always are very ugly? ".
Of course after that my bf says it to me and ask me next time say 'nice ' or like it very much otherwise she not happy again. Actually I really wanna tell him that "then how about my feelings? ".I also bought a small inner bag for her. but she don't even want it.But of course I didn't say it out to him as he is in the middle of us.

Well actually I just say what I comment on the jacket which I really feel quite nice, but for me it not as nice as very. Style is very characteristics and personal,even my mum buy me clothes, if nice then I say nice if not then I will directly say ugly. Yesterday, I have a very good lessons about this.

Today I suddenly been reflected by what my bf says. He say that sometimes I talk to people without considering people's feeling. I realize is that really true of me?

I don't know. I just know that I always been misunderstood by peoples.

life to no regrets

Humans... will go through the death devil before they go to the non return way?
recently am I have a smoke of unlikeness?
why in just shortly a year some people around me are face to the death devil?
well know there doesn't have anyone will accompanied us forever.
we need to really appreciate what we have and who we with now.

never to regret....

The act, we improving

Today's topic is the THE ACT OF HUMANS.

In working life is very normal that we will meet some people that is incredible rude. The problem is how we act our position infront of them.

Today I get to know an interest story that start from an office lady. Hmmm, sometimes we just a small little ants in the office, we can't really fight those big elephant that lack of brain. She just ask the brainless senior to revise the costing but don't know what happened in between them,the elephant shouted at her infront of all the other colleagues.

The lady feels herself rude if she fight him back,so she just keep quiet. In this case, hmmm for me, well I will just ignore that fatty bastard because it's doesn't worth to angry of that small little shit.

But she choose to make herself suffer still. she posted her anger on her message wall. Wow this act is definitely just to let all her friends and family know about it and as normal response, normally friends will comment on her post which will support her. Hmmm it's makes me feel like...she doesn't get any support from others when she been shouted by her senior and now she wants to get some mentally support from her net friends or she just full fill herself when her friends helping her to scold her senior on her personal message wall.

Haizz... actually all I says can't really easy to do it. A person in her anger, needs something else to cool her down. Well it's normal. This is definitely normal human act. ..hmmm I seems find myself have improving on my act as I couldn't imagine that I am not angry at all yesterday. Haha, well I not that office lady that this story about. Is just my housemate making problem again,I didn't angry at all, well I just feel like,he have his comments on my attitude, okay, I received his comments and I trying to improve my act until he have have nothing to say on me.

Well, is not easy to resistant this kind of brainless animal's behavior.

The air will full of freshness tomorrow.
we improving our act.

There is no more Love and Peace but with Words of nature.